Okie Dokie, here's the deal. I'm feeling rather yin and yang this week. The pendulum won't stop swinging.
My kid is all grown up and doesn't need me anymore. Ha! It's liberating and very, very disturbing at the same time. Bitter Sweet.
Our business is picking up lately but still on life support. The cart keeps coming around, but the business keeps picking up its head and proclaiming, "I'm not dead yet." Optimistic Realist.
My mom and dad are away for two months. I miss them but at the same time I'm feeling "guilty happy" because I've got more free time on my hands. Guilty Comfort.
My house needs a good cleaning, but I don't feel like doing it. But that little pan in the sink needs a good scouring. I think I'll spend 20 minutes brillo-ing all the dark spots off until it shines. Lazy Ambition.
I was all ready to participate in Earth Hour. The staunch conservationist and avid recycler in me was ready to turn off the lights. Then I got all militant on my ass and thought to hell with it. I'm not a joiner. I don't do causes. I stood there arguing with myself. What's up with that? Oh yeah. Menopause. Crystallized Moments of Confusion.
The gray at my temples is becoming too prominent. My sisters keep telling me to color my hair. But I don't want to bend to peer pressure or vanity. But I guess I'll do it anyways, because I do want to look a few years younger. Better to Look Good than to Feel Good.
It's been a weird week.
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"Crystallized Moments of Confusion" oh my god you just described my whole life! I think maybe we must walk this evening. Also, all those sisters with time on their hands? Call up the troops and give that house a good spring cleaning! I'd be there in a heartbeat!
I thought mine were all grown up too until they moved back in.
Have a great RTT.
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I love your random!
I can so relate!
Now, you get right in there and dye those gray roots. Never let them see you age. It's like Earth Hour. Screw it!
I didn't even KNOW about earth hour until I read about it AFTER the fact. oops!
I'm sticking with my salt and pepper look because I'm a man and I can.
Don't hate me because I'm beautiful...
Your weird week is rubbing off.
Oh, I totally relate to Lazy Ambition and Guilty Comfort! I'm pretty sure your concept of dueling opposites is going to stick with me for the next few days, because it's so descriptive of the ambivalence I feel much of the time.
And: I color my hair lighter, not darker, because it's more flattering and because I don't need to remind people at work how old I'm getting to be. (Like they don't already know, but still....)
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Lazy ambition, I love it! I will need to use that phrase at least twice in the next week!
I must be one big oxymoron, because everything you just said made perfect sense to me.
Great post. I have been wrestling with opposing impulses lately myself. Just remember: Wherever your pendulum is headed, I'm going with you.
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