I get to experience the day on a totally different timetable. I still take care of our business, but my days are less structured. When there is no one waiting at home I'll wander. I'll hang around. I'll stay put longer. I'll stop at a bookstore. My day is mine to do what I wish. I eat when I want and visit family and friends without looking to see if it's time to go home.
Of course, knowing this, my family has made all kinds of plans for me. I don't mind. It's always a good time to refresh family bonds. But I allow myself to selfishly decline if I want. I never feel guilty when I say no because I need my alone time.
It's been a while since I have been completely alone. I'm not a person that gets lonely. I like solitude and seldom need the companionship of other humans. But the feeling this week can only be described as empty. My bed seems particularly cold this past week. It's hard to sleep when the furnace of your life is away.
I'm ready to leave aloneness. I'm glad I can set aside this state of being until another time. It's an option that some people just don't have. I miss my companions and the togetherness of our little trio.
Please bring them back safe to me.