Monday, May 30, 2011

What Am I Waiting For? - Spin Cycle

Waiting is a perpetual state with me.  I'm waiting for the right answer to hit me or for the right moment or waiting for a sign.  I'm waiting to become successful.  I'm waiting for the indecision to leave me. I'm waiting for my gut to tell me, because damn it after decades of waiting, I've found that my past gut decisions have served me well.  I'm just willing to wait.

Funny thing about waiting, it's an action word.   If I'm waiting, I'm actually doing something, right?

I used to feel guilty about it, as though waiting was akin to laziness. But things have happened in my life that has shown me that waiting was the right decision after all.

Is waiting, wisdom in patience?  Or is it the refuge of the indecisive?

Waiting is tolerable when it's my decision.  But when it's out of my control and a required state of mind, it can be excruciating.  Like the time I was sitting in a hospital waiting room with my mother and father waiting for the news on whether my brother was going to live or die. The rush of relief when the waiting was over is not one I will ever forget.

But as I get older, waiting becomes less and less appealing.  Time is marching on.  It used to be small thing, but my, how it has grown. It's legs have gotten strong and it's about to surpass me at a rapid pace. I hear the steps coming behind me in the distance.  So I have got to pick up my pace.  No more waiting.

Because I certainly don't want to have to beg as it tries to pass, "Wait!  I'm not fast enough!  Please wait!

Wait no more Spinners. Head over to Sprite's Keeper with Jen, your host of the Spin Cycle.

1 comment:

Sprite's Keeper said...

Waiting has always meant preparation to me. If I'm waiting on something, I have time to sort it out in my head and therefore know (for the most part) what to expect. Granted, it takes the surprises out of the equation and makes things a little more dull in some people's books, but I'm just that way. :-)
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